Phillipians 4:7 (Amplified version)
‘And God’s peace (shall be yours, that tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace) which transcends all understanding shall garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.’
being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is…
I crave this contentment. It’s like a driving force that compels me to know more, to want more, to understand more. So I ask what it will take to come to this place of peace.
‘The only one who needs to ‘see’ you, is Me’
This sentence brought me to tears today, as the realisation dawned that I am not at all comfortable or content in the truth of ‘you in me and me in you’ and there being nothing in between.
It’s like looking into a mirror that reflects not the outward facade, but the inner workings of the soul…like seeing into what really makes me tick…and discovering that it’s not quite so clean and tidy in there; that there are some rusty bits and some bits that just frankly have to be replaced.
I know that this journey is sacred. I know that the Father will carry me through this time of refinement and rebirth. It’s not in any way a walk in the park but I am certain that at the end of it all the revelation and contentment will be worth every step.
I am convinced that nothing can hold me back from this pursuit for I can see the outworking of it’s journey. I know so deep within me that this is the key to the peace that I seek.
And so despite the gnawing knot in my soul, I will follow this pursuit, quashing the emotional roller coaster that is trying to persuade me that I am ok just the way I am and will press on toward the gates that take me into the depths of Him, where I shall truly find myself in Him and the contentment that I instinctively know is there.