Know who you are

Oh My Goodness… how long does it take a soul to finally accept what it has always known to be true?  My whole life I have had a love/hate relationship with my creativity… a bond that both strangles me and releases me, a capacity that drives my senses to confusion and yet compels me to strive for that ‘perfect’ sound, that ‘just right’ note… that exquisite phrase…

I have tried almost every kind of work there is.  Honestly, apart from becoming a Minor or a CEO, I’ve tried anything and everything that I have been capable to do.  And failed at every single one of them.  Some miserably 😀

Just now, I sit here at my laptop and keystation, attempting to create a piece of techno style music, pushing my creative skills to the edge for the first time this year.  My son sent me a link to a favourite artist of ours, Josh Garrels, and as I watched this perfectly produced and serene song come to life in yet another way (he always surprises us!), it dawned on me.

Begin to see who you are, become awakened to the possibilities of the freedom that you carry and become inspired to go further than you ever dreamed...

Begin to see who you are, become awakened to the possibilities of the freedom that you carry and become inspired to go further than you ever dreamed…

I am a composer.  I am a writer of verse, a scribe of sound, a manipulator of frequencies.  This is who I am.  No matter how many jobs I try to do, no matter how many ways in which I attempt to earn an income, one thing remains constant and true:  music is the colour palette of my soul and without it my world is just grey.

Of course I will always write in this kind of vein as well.  And I will always pick up a paintbrush and splash the colours that grow inside, onto a canvas and I will always strive to find new ways in which to be creative.  I must.  It’s in my DNA.  I cannot avoid it.  I’ve tried.

So today, with a new sense of recklessness, I plunge into the waters that have beckoned me since the beginning of time and choose to go deeper than I’ve ever gone before.

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